Here's to happy blogging!

Well, this should be interesting. I have a serious case of the 'now whats'. What's a now what, you ask? Look it up, but I think I just made it up.

So, I just finished my final exam and I am officially a college graduate. I always imagined this day in my head to be that of one in which I am elated with joy and I would actually witness stress leaving my body. I am extremely proud of myself that I actually accomplished a goal, especially one that I never really believed I could or would complete. I just figured that I will believe it when I see it. Well, I have spent the past 8 years of my life juggling school somewhere into my constant busy schedule. I never left home without my backpack in the slight chance that I might get stuck in traffic and need to read a chapter... who does that? My face seemed to always be in a book. I even realize that I probably neglected my children, at times, trying to study or write a paper. There was ALWAYS a deadline that was in my mind. 

I may have been too serious about my studying habits, but I felt that I had something to prove. I was a high school drop out and I had to prove to myself that I was, not only smart enough to graduate college, but to graduate with honors. Was it really necessary? Probably not, but what is done is done. And, I am finito, burrito! And after 8 years of constant stress, worry and endless hours of studying I feel a little lost. I truly feel like, now what?

No more back pack, that's cool, it was starting to stink. No more studying, that's cool, I was over that freshman year. No more papers, note taking, PowerPoint, parking, stressing, ass-kissing, waiting in line for books, and my personal favorite... no more phone calls to the financial aid office that will take up to 2 hours. I am over all of these things but I really don't know what to do without these things. They have become my life and as much as I have bitched and moaned it seems that I grew accustom.

And, so here I blog! Blogging has always been something that I have wanted to try but my response every time was, "I don't have time". I am hoping this will help with my now whats! I guess we will see. I have always wanted to write a book and I think this will help bring back some much needed creativity into my life. Here's to happy blogging.... still learning the ropes.